Bad Bad day...

It didn't rain yesterday but that is so how I feel.

I didn't do anything crafty or at all productive yesterday, I had a really bad day yesterday, on Monday night my husband was helping me shower (don't get all twisted) because I can't stand and remain stable on dry land let alone on the wet shower floor, and mid-shower as i was leaning on him for support we went THROUGH the shower wall, because our house it appears wasn't built anywhere NEAR properly. They built our shower WITH DRYWALL! DRYWALL.. NOT CEMENT BOARD! So Twenty six years later the drywall has basically MELTED, so now I don't have a shower in my bedroom, and have to run around the house to get cleaned up hopefully THOSE walls don't disintegrate any time soon, because we pretty much don't have the money right now to fix OUR bathroom let alone all the other bathrooms in this house.

The thing is is that with the shower wall (its a half wall) dissolving its also the wall to the bathtub so we have to replace that too, and since ONE wall is drywall I'm just going to guess the OTHER two walls are also drywall so we're going to have to pretty much GUT half of our bathroom to fix this problem, we'll need to get cement board, vapor barriers, wood, tile, thin set, grout new shower pan, new bath tub, we'll more than likely have to rip up the sub floor if the water got down there too, so sub floor and new tile, hopefully we can get some that SORT OF matches the rest of the house.

We don't have that kind of money right now, that's the honest truth and I am medically NOT allowed to work right now because of a terrible knee injury. Our only hope at the moment is that my husband gets the promotion he is supposed to be getting, and qualifies for a reenlistment bonus. I can't wait to be healed so i can work and save up to get this done because its looking like maybe next year before we can get this fixed.

So Tuesday i spent most of the day in a deep dark funk. I mostly felt like crying all day. I did a lot of research online on bathroom remodels, got frustrated, felt even MORE like crying. All that i can hear is the sound of the tiles falling, and the sound of a cash register. I did find out there is a habitat for humanity Restore in town so that might help a little.

I hope that today is better, and that I can start moving in the right direction, maybe even make up some REAL plans and budgets yesterday I was just too much of a mess yesterday.

Any thoughts and prayers you could send my way would be much appreciated, even if its just for my sanity. I am just trying to remind myself that God won't give me more than I can handle, I just wish He didn't think so highly of me at the moment. He's given me a lot to try to deal with right now.